First and foremost I want to thank you all for the incredible outpouring of love, prayers and support as I faced this monumental event in my life. It is truly humbling and I appreciate each and every one of you who took the time to reach out during this.
The surgery went well yesterday and we had a six centimeter margin, which is very good. My surgeon, Dr. Rapp, told us that the tumor was quite large, about the size of an elongated softball!
There is definitely a lot of pain that comes along with the amputation, but we are working to get my pain meds right and get that under control. The phantom pains are actually really interesting. I can feel exact places on my missing right foot or leg that will itch, but when I go to scratch it, it is obviously not there! Right now my knee has some pain, but again, there is no way to alleviate it or ease it into a better position.
Thankfully the phantom “pains” haven’t been hurting me too much, so I can observe the interesting aspects of it. The most frustrating thing I’ve found so far is when I have the urge to wiggle my toes on my missing foot. It feels like my foot is there and just won’t respond, which just makes me want to try harder! I have found that I just have to fight the urge from the start and it isn’t too bad.
I’m heading to bed now, but thank you all again for the incredible prayers and support during this fight to get cancer free!